Last week I decided to stop writing on this blog – but no one even noticed because after I made that decision (and posted it, in my own way), I had a song that was in my head that I needed to share and a text conversation that made me laugh. Then there was unconscious mutterings and a commercial that amused me. Apparently, those posts were the fumes you can coast on until you really, truly run out of gas.
I am broke. Emotionally, mentally and physically bankrupt. I have no more words to share here in this space. The magic this place once held for me is gone now and I don’t know if it will return. I don’t even know if I want it to.
For probably the first time in my life, I don’t need words.
I need silence.